Today I woke up feeling as though I am failing myself and my kids some how. I mean, I try and be a good mother but, I have nothing to offer them but, my love. That is not enough in today's world. Is it? Nah, I didn't think so. I am wanting to go back to school. I want to be something anything other than what I am now. Perhaps I am grasping at straws.

To top that off I have realized that MR.H wants to control me as that is all he has in life. Keep me on a leash. I was asked by a dear friend today if I had a car of my own. Well no not really. I wrecked mine a few years ago. (Not my fault). Anyways..........MR.H took me off of the insurance of the other car even though I have paid on it as well. So I can't drive it. I really need to get a life before life gets me.

Well, that is it for now. I think I will stop my bitching as it is getting me no where but, damn it feels good to talk about it.