Well, the phone has been ringing off the hook all day. I have not answered but, one call and that was when Carla called to tell me she was coming out here tonight. Yea!!!! The rest are BC (bill collectors). They can go to you know where. Anyways......... I finally ate something just now. I had a steak n egg cheese bagel from this morning and a candy bar. Not the most nurtricious meal but, it was good.

L came home from school with here hair all matted up. She went swimming today. I don't see why they can't quickly comb out the kids' hair when they get out of the pool?!

One thing with this pregnancy that I didn't have with H or L is that I am able to smell anything and everything. Sometimes it's a good thing, other times it's a really bad thing. If you catch my drift. The baby moved around a teeny bit today. Not much though. He/She is still too small really to make an impact. I am now 14 weeks. I am starting to show too. Wooohooo! So, I am going to be pregnant during a very hot time of year. I hope that I can stand it. We don't have air conditioning. Well, we have a window unit but, it doesn't really do much for us. (sigh) I know last year I just constantly sweated and such. Oh well! It's all worth it in the end.

Ohhhh L has her lovely dentist appointment tomorrow in Columbus. I hope I can stand the drive there. I just wish we would move back up there as everything is right there within our reach. Lots of places to shop and lots of things to choose from. Plus I love the diversity up there. My children need to be around all kinds of cultures. I grew up in a diverse community and I think that really helped me out quite a bit. Down here people can be a bit "prejudice" which angers me. There just isn't a need for that.

Not much else is going on today. I took a phenergan today to keep me from getting sick again. I really look forward to when I feel GREAT again! I can't wait to hold my child in my arms.

Ohhhh I had a nightmare last night. I was with my friend Jodi and we had our kids playing in a field. All of a sudden a major tornado hit and we were trying to round up the kids to safety. It was a freaky dream. I woke up after that to L crying. I wonder what that dream meant. I am not good at understanding dreams and such.

I am so tired of listening to DH's radio station of choice. WWKRC in Cincinnati. Blah! Rush Limbaugh and now Shawn Hannity. Don't get me wrong. Shawn Hannity is alright but, Rush gets on my nerves. He can be an ass. I am NOT a political person. Never have been and never will be. Whatever! They are all the same to me. Bah!

Well, I have rambled enough today. I hope I keep my food down and that I can actually have a decent evening.

Have a good day people!

Well, I am the proud mother of two children. My son is 6 and my daughter is 4. I am expecting my third child and this will definitely be my last. This pregnancy was a shock, not because we didn't want another baby but, because, I simply didn't expect it to happen. If that makes any sense. Anyways........I am 27 years old. I am by no means content with my life at this time. I want to make a change for the better for my children and I. I really don't know what to say about my husband. He has been unemployed for the last 4 months or so and things have been bad. We unfortuneately(sp?) live in his parents other home. I hate it here. I feel as though we are being "watched". In a sense we are. I am very unhappy here. But, we have fallen on hard times and what can I expect. I feel bad for the children. That I have betrayed them some how by not getting a college education first before having a family. But, I was young and well......you know.

I love my kids more than life itself though.

We are in Ohio and I hate it here. I am not from here. This is NOT my home. I am from Chicago Illinois originally and I want back there badly. But, I just have to wait things out.

My husband won't look for work outside of the county it seems. I have often begged him to look back in Columbus where there is a ton of employment. But, he doesn't want to leave Mommy and Daddy it seams.

I am trying to be mature but, sometimes I don't feel that I am. That I pout too much.

To top all that off I have been heavily ill with this pregnancy. I have lost 45 Ibs in 6 weeks. My doctor finally put me on phenergan today! Yea!!!! I think I am getting some relief finally!

I believe in God and that he helps us if we help ourselves. So.....I am more than likely not going to be relying on DH for our monetary needs after the baby is born in August so it looks like I will be going back to work after wards. That is fine by me. I actually enjoyed working and it got me out of the house.

My sister calls me almost daily to check up on me. I really appreciate that. She says to hang in there. That things will get better and this too shall pass. I just hope our vehicle does not get repoed but, it looks like it will. I feel as though I have failed my children and this unborn child I carry. I wanted a better life for my kids. Not this. I am not going to place all blame on my husband as it is my fault as well. It takes two to tango.

I have so many random thoughts in my head right now. I just want to be able to be content and go on with life and be happy. I should be happy, right?

Well, I guess I will write more later. That's all I can think of for now!