So, DH got a job! Yea!!!!!!! I hope it works out! We need money!

He said we can move by June! Yea again! I hate living in this hell hole! (sigh) Just a few more months! Yea!!!!!!!!!! Did I say Yea?

I watched Wedding Crashers tonight. LOL I love Owen Wilson and Vince Vaughn. It's a good movie if you all want to laugh a bit and forget about life in general.

I watched the skeleton key the other night. Wicked movie. You gotta watch it. At the end I was like WTF? Anyways......it was good but, I hated the ending.

I went to the hospital this week! Got rehydrated. The nurses are so nice at the birthing center! I am so glad I chose this place to have the baby/babies. Yea, that's another thing. I "might" be expecting twins. I find out in a few more weeks.

My kids are sick. They have miserable coughs and runny noses. :( I am going to keep them home from school. Then I will take them to the doctor and get them situated. No need in sending them to be miserable all day and to get other kids sick.

I am so hungry right now. I didn't eat much today. I had mac n cheese and apple sauce. Yum! Not! LOL

I can't sleep! It's 4am! Oh well!

Oh I talked with my sister. We are all better now. (sigh) I hate fighting with family members.

My Dad called me the other day all worried about me. Bless his heart. He's still begging me to move out to Arizona to be with him. I would like to honestly. I like it better than here.

Well, that is all for now!

So, yesterday I called my sister to check up on her.

Can we just say she was very rude and hurtful to me. Perhaps she was fighting with her husband, AGAIN! I don't know.

I was telling her about a friend of mine that I met who said he would take the kids and I to church. She assumed I was doing something with this guy. Not hardly! Then, she said well, I have to go because you sound "up" and too happy. I am getting bad vibes off of you. I was like what?! Fine then. Be a B! I don't care. I hung up. I think I am done with family on both sides. Seriously. H's family are down right mean and my family leaves something to be desired. So, I think I am just going to keep to mah self for now on. Blog on here and stuff. Whatever. Not much else to do. I mentioned getting back into singing and such and she didn't like that either. So, whatever. I hear all the time about her wonderful dream of being at second city. Bla bla bla! Well, you know what. I finally got rid of SIL and this "friend" of mine. So I guess I can get sister out of my life too. I am better off without them anyways. They are "toxics". So, that's what has been up with me lately. Not much else going on. Still nausias and stuff. Trying my best to get through the days. They keep trudging along.

Today I woke up feeling as though I am failing myself and my kids some how. I mean, I try and be a good mother but, I have nothing to offer them but, my love. That is not enough in today's world. Is it? Nah, I didn't think so. I am wanting to go back to school. I want to be something anything other than what I am now. Perhaps I am grasping at straws.

To top that off I have realized that MR.H wants to control me as that is all he has in life. Keep me on a leash. I was asked by a dear friend today if I had a car of my own. Well no not really. I wrecked mine a few years ago. (Not my fault). Anyways..........MR.H took me off of the insurance of the other car even though I have paid on it as well. So I can't drive it. I really need to get a life before life gets me.

Well, that is it for now. I think I will stop my bitching as it is getting me no where but, damn it feels good to talk about it.

Ok...............So I found the perfect song for my life!

Artist: Erika Jo
Album: Erika Jo
Title: Go


Sweaty hands,quicksand
Know I should,but I'm scared I can't
It's a big move,everything to lose
What if it's nothing like the way I planned
What if,what if I fall
What if chasing my dreams just chasing my tail
Do I listen to the voice telling me to stay
Or listen to the voice that's screaming out

Go
Just go
Just go with your heart
Go with the flow
There's only on way you're ever gonna know
Go

This town,safe and sound
Already know my way around


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Got a few good friends and few good men
That'll buy me flowers and take me out
What if,what if I stay
Do I really want to spend the rest of my days
On a dead end street in a dead in job
I could live like that,but my dreams won't stop

Go
Just go
Just go with your heart
Go with the flow
There's only on way you're ever gonna know
Go

Just forget it
Everybody said it
But I know I'd regret it if I didn't
Go,just go

This is HOW I FEEL!!!!!!!!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh I feel like I am at a dead end in the road. I hate this feeling. I am so excited about having another baby and getting to hold him in my arms but, I am also wanting to be more than just a housewife. I am so unhappy in my marriage. I love him. Don't get me wrong but, he has gotten so freaking nasty lately. UGH! Something has to give! It's going to be me one day up and leaving with 3 kids. On my own! Making it as a single Mom. I am better off that way anyways.........

I got this in an email just now:

Week 13 Pregnancy Tip

Healthy Eating for a Healthy Pregnancy

Hi Tracy,
It's important that you eat enough of the right nutrients to ensure you and your baby stay healthy. Every day, you should have:
6 or more servings of bread, cereal, rice, or pasta
3 to 5 servings of vegetables
2 to 4 servings of fruit
2 to 3 servings of meat, poultry, fish, dry beans, eggs, or nuts
At least 8 glasses of water

For one They are a week off on my pregnancy. Not a big deal. But, hey, who in the world eats THIS much in one day? Not I!